Hi, welcome to my blog. The posts that say, “originally posted on..“ are from my first Fight Back With Love website–with a different company.
- A Quiet Month (or So)
If you’ve noticed my absence lately, it was intentional.
Over the past month or so, I stepped away—fully. I uninstalled Facebook, Messenger, Instagram, WhatsApp, X, TikTok, and Telegram from both my phone and laptop. I barely used YouTube or iTunes, aside from sleep music. Fewer inputs. Less noise. More space.
That space was necessary.
I spent this time doing deep introspection and emotional processing—working through long-standing feelings of inadequacy and questioning whether I was even qualified to run a business. At one point, I seriously considered dissolving Fight Back With Love altogether and focusing exclusively on my health and wellbeing.
There were also some very low days. Days where it felt like my estranged husband’s emotional and behavioral struggles might swallow me whole. Days of grief over not being able to visit my mom—again—because of responsibilities that still anchor me here at home.
At the same time, I’ve been shifting how I understand my own mental health—moving from seeking short-term relief for depression and anxiety toward pursuing long-term stability while facing what appears to be lifelong complex PTSD. Add a double respiratory infection into the mix, and this season required my full attention.
During this time, I participated in a Soma+IQ workshop that unexpectedly brought clarity on multiple levels. Near the end of a guided breathwork session, we were invited into a clearing breath. In that moment, I felt a physical shift—starting in my lower back, followed by a release of congestion and a distinct rattling in my left lung.
I wrote in my notes:
“Clearing breath – lower back – congestion release.”
Then came the reflection prompts:
What is holding me back? What am I still carrying? What is still in the way of me being totally free?
Immediately afterward, I experienced a clear, unmistakable insight—one that cut straight to the heart of how I’ve viewed my own “disability.”
I wrote:
“My ‘disability’ does NOT disqualify me from being fully, totally, unconditionally accepted and loved for who I authentically am. I do not deserve to be judged, condemned, rejected, gossiped about, or belittled because of a perceived disability.”
That realization isn’t new to Fight Back With Love—it is Fight Back With Love. It’s the foundation.
So here’s the invitation—for you, and a reminder for me:
Do not disqualify yourself based on how others perceive you.
Do not measure your worth by whether you seem “qualified enough,” “strong enough,” or “normal enough.”
And don’t waste your energy fighting them.
Turn it inward.
Reclaim it.
Fight back—with love—for yourself.
More to come.
To be continued. ?
